Life is a journey.
Monday, December 19, 2011 @ 10:26 PM leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
Sometimes, some people will never see what you are feeling. They would think that I'm just joking and they would just think it's fun. People do not get that I'm not always that insane, outgoing and hyperactive person that would always enjoy life. They'll think that there's something wrong with me when I feel frustrated and they wouldn't care. They would just leave you for they would prefer to be happy with others than to cheer someone up. I'm not a person who doesn't have a heart. I have feelings, and I know that.
People take me as a childish person thinking that I cry for small things. I'm sensitive, but I know that I have a reason why to feel unhappy. Not all the closest ones will always be there because many do not understand. I'm still young and immature. I'm still a kid who is searching for happiness until I find one as I grow up and live my own life.
Sometimes, people will shake you and make you fall. That's what actually makes me stronger because I learn how to fight back, let go and move on. I am lucky to have people who love me, those who would be there and help me to stand up whenever I fall. I feel lucky to love others and to be loved.
I'm not a patient nor a very appreciative person. That's another fact that makes me unhappy most of the time. Sometimes, I get really sick of waiting for anyone. But then, I would think to myself. Doesn't anyone ever waited for you, waiting so much and sometimes they don't even get to meet or talk to you? I'm still growing, I'll learn, I'll try to control myself and learn to become a better person. I'm still growing, I'll learn, I'll try to control myself and become a better person.
Sometimes, I would argue and become short tempered with the people I love. I would just want to, thinking that I am actually right for what I'm wrong of. Sometimes it makes me wonder why people would still accept me with many flaws I actually have. I didn't accept myself for who I am and I would well, you can say torture myself to be what I expect myself to be. That's what I lack, acceptance.
I'm still learning to accept myself. I want to grow up loving myself for who I am and accepting the fact that people love me for who I am.
There are many things I do not get yet and there is so much in life that I should explore. You wouldn't realize it, but in a blink of an eye and as you grow up, you'll realize that you've already grown up. It would be sad if you do not get to discover and explore what your life can actually be. Discover new things, learn, laugh, act insane sometimes and be happy. Love to be loved.
I'm still thirteen. I'll learn to hold on, let go, move on, and understand what true happiness feels like.
Life is a long journey. My life is a story, and I know that it's still the beginning.